After two years of working in a small city close to my family in Canada, my heart remains unsettled. Now, I find myself at a crossroads, not knowing which way to turn.

My calling seemed certain, now I question my career path and my relationship with my boyfriend. My futile efforts to pretend it’s all okay displace me, spinning me loose, and my world threatens to toss me into disarray. But the winds of change bring a hopeful challenge when a letter arrives from a nurse in Alaska inviting me to work at a remote clinic. Perhaps God has more in mind for me than I hope for myself.

Can I rise to this adventure and leave the familiarity of home and country?

Will I be able to set aside my own agenda and trust God’s timing?

Or will my need to have a detailed plan in all areas of my life be an obstacle too large for me to overcome? 

After our wedding rehearsal, my fiancé, James, suggests we roll the dice to decide our fate for his next teaching job. Leaving life’s decision to chance sounds like fun. However, will it align with my innate tendency for order?

Our adventure promises northern lights, snowflakes, and the wonder of Alaska. But luck gives us a double portion of both blessings and burdens that threaten to bury me in an avalanche of doubt and worry.

Will I be able to care for my family in the crucial moments, or am I destined to falter? Where do I turn for assuring direction in this uncertain game called life?